~Richard-chan

So much has happened in the new year. I'm not in the most sober mood as I write this, so keep it in mind!

I just got hit with a ton of inspiration. Today. It feels so weird to be an adult and to be around those who treated me like their equals. I don't know why this is making me feel inspired to do more, maybe because I'm starting to care about things again?

Work has definately changed me. I don't think I can go back to being the same person, and that scares me. Will I loose all my friends because my personality has been brought out more and some may not like it? I used to be the kind of person who wanted to be a hermit. But last night changed everything.

The climax of this stupid thing. I went to a party last night, where I was the youngest person there. But nobody treated me like I was 'barely legal'. It was great, we had dirty hookers all around (it's a drink, for those who don't know). Anyways, I had way too much to drink (not the first time this has happened). That's the only excuse I can give for my lackof-judgement. At one point, I had to stay with my friend, because I was afraid to be alone. And again, I don't know why I'm writing this, maybe for later reading?

But seriously, when someone's 31 and you're 19, don't you think there's something wrong? And that's basically why I'm writing this, because I need to explain why such a thing happened, incase someone got the wrong idea last night. So my rant is over, and I'm off to write and draw.